Snapshots from Hell - Part II

After my 4 months and 13 days at XIM, one thing i was pretty much sure that i good business school will try to teach in 2 years what an engineering college would have taken 5 years to taught. I thaught that i would be able to share each and every moment of here but the rigour and the paucity of time has always hold me back.

One day when i woke up after the MID-TERM someone reminded me of the approaching Final Term, though my perfomance was below average (this is what the result of Ist Term in future is going to verify), I was really try hard to advance to higher class of the Averages. I also got my lowest marks in my life in any subject in school and engineering but economics spaded my belief of having sound knowledge of Eco.

One thing that the continuous process of examination has given a confidance and the skill to perform good enough even you are not prepared for that, I'll not state the reasons for not preparing, and i utilize these learning to the fullest in my Final Term. And you'll never know when I had entered the Second term.

At each and every moment the people here has always inspired me to learn and improve myself in any field i want to go. The most important learning is to be a Perfectionist i.e. to achieve the perfection in at least one of the field u pursue instead of just being a jack of all trade and master of none. To be competitent you ought be a master in something, otherwise the sheer competition will always throw you out just like ocean which throws out the waste to the beaches or its edges. Before joining here the image that i was having about a good business school is full with other co-curricular activities in addtion to rigrous studies, and XIMB has made that image in to a reality.

'Expression' - Our Annual Business school Festival is one of the mega events of which i will be a part in organising it. I being a Part of 'Krukshetra' team ( an simulation game that replicates the business decision that a manager has to take in real life) has to develop the code for Marketing Domain of the game, it was real fun which has taken my 3-4 days of my sleep, thanks to Sanat and Jaya for the cooperation in developinga sucessful module of it. It was also a sense a achivement in organising a Pre- Expression event known as 'Zeus & Venus' which was an effort to Find out the Personality of the person and asking the judges to determine the best among them( this one is most difficult part as i peronally feel that each one is unique in itself, each one has certain level of acumen, knowledge, talent and lot of other things which we cant match with others). The event was a real insight for me to know a lot about the people with whom i was staying since i joined XIM, that event has really carved out the talent the person where having out in public, really felt stranged about the enormous talent that is kept hidden untill such a platform is provided to them.

Considering our part of prepartion for the game, i'll was not sure that we will be able to perform and that the event would turn out to be one of the good events of the college. The team had really perform well, each one contributing with its own part, Partha with its Compering and Creativity in the game, Niks for the poster and question brainstorming, Abhishek and Daya for the there PR Skills and Abhishek also helping in logistic part, Sanjana and Mridul for coordinating and making questions for the various round.

I Hope so that such process of continuous learning and Improving myself day by day will be there like a vicious circle............to follow what Anthony Robbins has said CANI (Constant and Never Ending Improvement).

Meri Janambhoomi - Sagar (Saugor)

For most of the place when we gave a name to it, then there is some history attached to that particular place, same goes with my birthplace - 'Saugor'. The name is amalgation of two words namely 'SAU' meaning 100 and 'GARH' meaning division, as it was once the headquaters of the Britshers while they where ruling India. One thing that never change 'Change' has changed the name of 'Saugor' to 'Sagar' which means an 'Sea' ( a sea of what???? that i would be describing it later). And if the name 'Sagar' would have given you the impression that the area is having an abundant amount of water resource the name givden to the place 'Sagar' is totally a misnomer, as it is a totally a water scarce area.

I am writing this blog as one my friend Anurag also from requested me for doing so, I dont know the reason for it, still the thaught of writing something about my birthplace has given me a nostalgic feeling of my childhood, my school, the small cursive streets, the big holes in the roads ( I really wonder whether they really exist there), a recognition that i belong to a city that is having one of the oldest Universities of India(Dr. Harisingh Gaur Universities), temples a visited, and offcourse my friends.

Sagar situated in the northen-central part of india, 180 kms from the state capital Bhopal. And easily connected to other cities of MP and also to the other states through national hoghway 26. The city is build over the five small pleateaus, that makes roads of sagar like the humps of of the camel. Being very near to Jhasi and Lalitpur the main components of BUNDELKHAND it has become a prime location for bundelkhandi culture. The language used is Hindi but only if he dont know Bundelkhandi the local dialect ( i really miss that) though the language may hurts the people who are not used to it as one may feel that the words are really sharp and missing the important ingredients of respect, but every language and dialect goes in its own way so is bundelkhandi. Major religions are Jainism, Hinduism, Islam and Sikhism, with other religions existing in harmony with others.

As far as education is concerned the city boast of two courses in university that are of world class reputation i.e. Pharmacy and Criminology( this subject is thaught in only two university in India). 6-7 good schools like Convent, Army,Central etc and a largde number of local schools, there are hardly any big industries there, and unemployment is very high, which exhort the youth to indulge in various illlegal activities, and the sagarities are known for there rude and always ready to fight behavior, this is mostly the case when something wrong is happening to them. Due to lack of propder guidance, money and a sense of responsibilty many talent just goes wasted. Beedi making is the main occupation and the cartel of these big manufacturer had always hindered in the development of other industries due to there self motive. But the beedi's of sagar are also famous among the smokers of India, and is also for which sagar is known.

The main reason what I feel regarding the current battered situation of sagar is due to the migration of people from nearby villages to city heartland, and the educated people of sagar moving out of sagar and even the state for better oppurtunities. This situation is quite alarming as it will make city sagar to a village when a town is getting converted to an metro in the rest of the developing state, what really amazed mde was the statitics from my own batch of school of 180 people, of whom nearly 50% has left the city either for higher studies or for job.

What i really feel that instead of running from the situation we should fight the situation, do something that would enrich my Janambhoomi, and how that has to be seriously thaught over.
Does the people who has left sagar will return back to there birhtplace, and help him to recuperate or make him die in pain.

DEATH - What if I die Tomorrow

Can anyone define Death? or can tell what is going to happen to him/her after death or when a person is going to die????????... I think these kind of question must have strike to each one of us and we fathom hard to find out there answer but whatever we could find about them we remain unsatiated by the complexity, logic and mystery of the frightning word 'Death'.

What compelled me to write on death was an unusal assignment of Organisational Behavior course where we have write our own obituary. I was Thinking hard how would my death would really matter to people living near me, physically as well as sensually. After my first relations and few friends i couldnt find anybody affected by it.

Another myth surrounding death is the life after death. According to Hindu mythology people in this world take nearly 84,00,000 lakh rebirths after death and his next life form depends upon the way he has behaved in this life. Others believe that life is only for once, and too agree with them. That reminds me of

"The body has gone, the soul is there

Live life to the fullest, as if there is nothing to fear"

While there was a lot of repercussion going in my mind regarding death, i was wandering what would happen if i would die tomorrow, and here is what i could get :-

When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see

If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me

I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today

While thinking of the many things we didn't get to say

I know how much you loved me--as much as I love you

And each time that you think of me I know you'll miss me too

But when tomorrow starts without me please try to understand

That an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand

And said my place was ready in Heaven far above

And that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love

But as I turned to walk away a tear fell from my eye

For all my life I'd always thought I didn't want to die

I had so much to live for, so much yet to do

It seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you

I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad

I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had
If I could relive yesterday just even for a while

I'd say goodbye and kiss you and maybe see you smile

But then I fully realized that this could never be

For emptiness and memories would take the place of me

And when I thought of worldly things I might miss come tomorrow

I thought of you and when I did my heart was filled with sorrow

But when I walked through Heaven's gates I felt so much at home

When God looked down and smiled at me from His great golden throne

So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart

For every time you think of me I'm right here in your heart.

And i thaught this would suffice what i had to say................

"Life is not measured by the breaths we take...

But by the moments that take our breath away..."